Category Archives: fertility

refinement in progress

Posted on October 8, 2010 by rachel

When Adam and I found ourselves traveling the topsy-turvy path of infertility, I quickly required myself to walk the path with grace. The infertile road is not for the faint of heart. If you are not watchful, it can quite … Continue reading →

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elephant in the room

Posted on May 10, 2010 by rachel

I am a happy mom, which means a great emotional current has awoken inside of my body these past two years. I am visibly more emotional because my children’s happiness brings me insane amounts of joy. I am still getting … Continue reading →

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the proverbial they

Posted on May 5, 2010 by rachel

“We decided to go with someone else.” is the dreaded phrase adoptive moms fear to hear (something bio moms never worry about). Adoptive Parent Translations: ‘You are not good enough for my baby.’ ‘You have too many children already, you don’t … Continue reading →

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molecular moments

Posted on April 6, 2010 by rachel

We have a large family portrait that hangs in our living room. I love it so much. It is a beautiful reminder to me of the struggles and decisions Adam and I have participated in over the past five years … Continue reading →

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flashes of infertility

Posted on December 31, 2009 by rachel

Two Christmases ago we were in Washington when I found out that I was pregnant, again. It ended up being my most painful and prolonged miscarriage for many reasons. A truly horrible experience. Heck, I am still paying it off … Continue reading →

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a year of healing

Posted on November 18, 2009 by rachel

It’s November. Those closest to me know what that means. I think it is getting easier. I really do. I was a bit weepy the first week of the month, but then nothing. I don’t think about our first lost … Continue reading →

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to stand or not to stand

Posted on May 11, 2009 by rachel

Adam thought I was acting weird when I rolled over Saturday night and told him I was not going to stand up at church on Sunday. He also took that to mean that we were not ever going to have a happy carefree … Continue reading →

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that darn root…jealousy

Posted on May 8, 2009 by rachel

It happened today.  I have been waiting for this moment, and it finally arrived. You know, that feeling of utter helplessness, as if time has stopped right in front of you while the world around you keeps swirling and twirling? And no matter … Continue reading →

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hitting my stride

Posted on April 30, 2009 by rachel

The one year mark must be approaching. I feel so good about mothering these days. Even on a morning like this morning–Ezzy is crying in her room, Juan P. is cleaning up his drenched pull-ups and pajamas, and Danny is pranking his sisters at the … Continue reading →

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a strengthening of faith

Posted on April 24, 2009 by rachel

So my best friend is pregnant. And we’re not talking a little pregnant. We are talking bursting boobies, peeing constantly, going to have the little guy any day pregnant. I haven’t blogged much about my personal experience with her pregnancy because 1. … Continue reading →

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