Category Archives: pregnancy

that darn root…jealousy

Posted on May 8, 2009 by rachel

It happened today.  I have been waiting for this moment, and it finally arrived. You know, that feeling of utter helplessness, as if time has stopped right in front of you while the world around you keeps swirling and twirling? And no matter … Continue reading →

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november rain

Posted on December 2, 2008 by rachel

Fall is my most favorite time of year…sipping hot chocolate, crunching leaves beneath my feet, the feel of brisk air on my face. (I know, I live in Las Vegas–but a girl can live in her memory, right?) It is a truly … Continue reading →

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it is not the same

Posted on October 13, 2008 by rachel

Adoption is not the same. It is not the same as creating life. I know there are many people who disagree with that statement. But for me, it is truth. My belief system holds that I was put here on … Continue reading →

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the yearly debate

Posted on May 10, 2008 by rachel

To go or not to go? That is the question. My first Mother’s Day as a married woman was spent sobbing at church as I had just completed my first miscarriage. Not recommended! My second was spent leading the music … Continue reading →

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miscarriage sucks!

Posted on March 24, 2008 by rachel

I hate it. It is not fair. It is not okay. I do not think any miscarriage or baby loss is more emotionally painful than another. I do think, however, that miscarriage is especially painful for those who do not … Continue reading →

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Friendship and Pregnancy

Posted on February 11, 2008 by rachel

One of my closest friends and most trusted confidants announced to me last week that she is expecting. Shock, amazement, joy, wariness, concern, and gratefulness are all thoughts that traveled through my mind. I am grateful for her trust in … Continue reading →

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Something Amazing!!!

Posted on January 13, 2008 by rachel

Yesterday, Adam and I attended an “adoption education” lecture in Layton, which meant a 1.5 hour drive each way plus 3 hours of lecture time. Needless to say, it was a full day of sitting. I knew I would be … Continue reading →

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The Good, and the Bad!

Posted on January 12, 2008 by rachel

We lost our fourth baby this week. That’s the short of it. Part of me is numb, and part of me aches. I told Adam yesterday to give me a few days of ice cream and doing nothing, and I … Continue reading →

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Seven Weeks, and Still Pregnant

Posted on January 3, 2008 by rachel

I had another check-up yesterday. And once again, we have ambiguous answers. The good news is that there is a sac in the uterus, which means no ectopic pregnancy. Phew! This is the first time EVER that we’ve been able … Continue reading →

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